Monday, September 30, 2013

be the bigger person

you know how your parents tell you that its best to be the bigger person and move on. well you never know how many times you will have to take the high road. sometimes i wish that more parents would have taught their kids that lesson.  when we have little ones we will be sure to tell them how hard it is to do what's right all the time but its better in the long run. you don't want your children getting handed everything and then when they grow up to expect the world just to give them hand outs too. i believe that if you keep your kids sheltered when it comes to money you are stunting them for adulthood.  im glad my parents taught me how it handle life lessons and move on. some people were not so lucky.

Saturday, September 28, 2013

omg gta 5

so leif bought a new game to keep him occupied  until the PlayStation 4 comes out in November. its grand theft auto 5. and man is it not appropriate for anyone. in the first ten minutes there must have been about 300- 500 cuss words. and we are not talking the little harmless cuss words we are talking the no one would say these words out loud kind of words. not don't get me wrong I like the game. it seems to let people live vicariously through it but were all the bad words really necessary . I told leif when we have a baby the games like that get put on a top shelf and do not get played before the kid hits rem sleep. he totally agrees. I guess that's one of the perks of not having kids yet but im so ready for them. he is too he is just really scared. maybe they need a video game where you have a baby and provide for it and try to get the best score. we would have a baby in no time. he would tell me how many points you get for a dirty diaper and that he would change them all for me. sounds nice this video game.

Thursday, September 26, 2013


I've been working on my book a lot lately and ive come to realize that creating and writing a story makes you lose track of time. I was writing one little tiny area of a chapter and it took 3 hours to finish,  then I look back and it was only like 12 pages on paper so that's like five typed out. At least its all coming together, ideas are working well together and it seems to be fitting like puzzle pieces. I really love how supportive leif is being with this, maybe he just likes the free time he has to play grand theft auto.  Oh well I feel productive.

Wednesday, September 25, 2013

lunch date

we are doing a fancy lunch date today. im excited. leif wants to have a buddy over on our day off and I said okay and I guess he doesn't want to our day off to be a waste so he wanted to have a day date.  he is so sweet. now I have to decide appetizers or lunch. I like this lunch date and then I get to work on my book while they men have there time.

Sunday, September 22, 2013

on the right track

I love when we have something to work for together. leif has been studying for his tests and I felt lost and didn't know how to help. then I figured it out. im going to look up stuff to help him with his interview. I can look up about the company he is looking at and things to do and  not to do in an interview. I like being productive and I didn't know it. I guess waiting tables doesn't give me that thrill, at least now I know accomplishing things makes me happy. maybe I will finish more things now. hopefully my book will be one of those things. I love being creative and writing helps me do that. back to the helping leif with interview questions and behaviors, if anyone has some advice any tips can help set him apart.

Friday, September 20, 2013

Feeling inspired

With leif doing all this study for his test it got me thinking about what I could do to help out with financial stability.  well I'm not really good at anything so not really sure what I could be. Then I remembered that I really like writing children and teen books. Normally I get like half a story done or one chapter then I get distracted.  Maybe this time I will finish, I think I have a good stroy base and have a time line alreay worked out. Stay tune for more updates on it.

Wednesday, September 18, 2013

My mouth

So again I know I don't have an inside voice but why do I say the weirdest things the loudest.  Last time it was the astronaut hooker shoes, this time I said something like "nasty lesbian she-male". I think my words are just too colorful. At least I'm aware of it now before we have kids so I can tone it down before they are old enough to pick up on things. I think I just need to work on tastfully describing things rather then usung the first thing that pops into my mind.  Maybe instead of astronaut hooker I could have said" futuristic woman of the night." Still gets the point acrossed without the did she just say that look. So where I used nasty lesbian she-male I should have said "unpleasant hermaphrodite with the bad hair cut". I think I still need to work on it but the first step is admitting you have a problem.

Tuesday, September 17, 2013

Good thoughts

Keep leif in your minds today, he has a big test that could get him a really good job. It would mean so much to him to do well today. Think happy happy thoughts for him and lets hope he does well. And don't worry if he doesn't do as well as he wants he can take a class and retake the test but lets hope for the best. I love him so much and I know he is smart and hard working and any company would be luck to have him but no one ask the wife for a reference.

oh leif

so every time leif gives me a reason why we should wait for babies we find a solution and move on to the next reason. first it was the we need to buy a house first, check. 2 reliable cars, check. going on vacation so we don't have to wait until the kid is old enough, check. saving money just for babies, check check and some more checks.  but now he found something that I can not fix or do for him. he wants a better job.  how am I suppose to get around that. he would have to go back to school to get a better job and that would suck up all of our baby money and add two or four years to the baby timeline. I understand he wants to make sure we will be okay when I need time off to stay with the kid but man waiting sucks.

Sunday, September 15, 2013


as I'm sitting here shoving food in my mouth I have been thinking about eating habits. now I know I cant blame my mom for my ability to keep up with my husband but I wonder if pigging out could have been trained into my head. like my niece loves yogurt, she thinks its dessert. there is no way you could tell me that yogurt is a treat. now milk a cookies that's a treat. if you wait to eat cookies until after you think yogurt is awesome then do you think as the same sweetness? I'm not so sure I could believe that. oh well, im getting crumbs on the laptop, until next time.

Friday, September 13, 2013


So love all of the princess movies and when we have kids I want all of them. The thing is if we have boys can they still watch the girly movies? And if it bad that if we have girls I want them to like superheroes and football. Does it make them well rounded or just weird.  I just don't want our kids to be cookie cutter kids. I want them to have great personalities from an early age. I didn't find my personality until high school and that sucked. Kids should know who they are and what they want to be early in life. If I knew who I was earlier maybe I could have gone to school for something I was passionate about and finished college.  Now I know I want to write childrens books and I like numbers. That could have helped in 9th grade. Oh well. Our kids are going to have big dreams and we are going to do everything we can to get them headed in the right direction.

Thursday, September 12, 2013


 I think our house sends out the we have booze kind of vibe. which we do have lots of booze, about 60 bottles of different kinds of alcohol. that seems like a lot and makes us sound like alcoholics but if we were alcoholics then we would have 60 empty bottles of liquor. that being said people just show up sometimes and its really strange. I don't know what it is about an open garage that makes people want to come to our house but it happens more often then you would think. normally its the losers from around the corner who don't like their garage so they wonder down to ours drunk and I have to send them on their way so they don't keep coming over. well last time that happened they got the message and realized that we didn't want them to keep coming over and being rude to us, so we thought our neighbor invasions had stopped. we were not so lucky last night. a different neighbor showed up.  and man this lady was drunk but she seemed lonely and nice so we talked a little before we sent her home. the lady stayed and talked for about 15 minutes and then went home. before she left though she told us that having kids ruins your life. now we don't take it personal that some people think that their kids suck the life out of you, everyone has their own opinions. I just wish more people would tell you how much a blessing kids are and how it changes you for the better. some people cant have kids and I would think that people who regret having children would piss them off. its weird that this lady was saying that and she just met us, we might not sound like we are ready for kids but we both know we are and we want them so random people will not change our minds about wanting babies.  lets hope the lady wakes up and doesn't remember coming over so maybe it wont happen again    

Monday, September 9, 2013


so I come home from work to finish watching the football games with leif and he made it through the first one. now I am watching it and he is sleeping on the floor. why on the floor, no idea. he said his tummy hurt and laid down so I rubbed his back to distract him and all of a sudden I hear snoring. oh well. ill wake him of if the game gets better. until then he can nap away

Sunday, September 8, 2013


So babies. We both want one but can't bring ourselves to decide on trying yet. Its so funny that we both know we will be good parents and have plans set for affording kids but still we are gun shy. I think it has something to do with how happy we are together.  Why mess with a good thing.  But babies might not change that. You never know

Thursday, September 5, 2013


Oh what a joy it is for the nfl to start tonight. Leif has been so happy watching this game, loving that football is back. And what have I been doing, yelling at the tv for the fantasy football players to listen to me and stop catching the ball for my opponent's team. Apparently I'm really competitive and I didn't know it. And I eat when I'm stressed and didn't know that either. So far for the last half of the game I ate 2 hotdogs, 5 peices of chocolate, a whole plate of cottage cheese and two sodas.  hopefully the season goes better than this game or else I will gain like 20 pounds.

Wednesday, September 4, 2013


So we had a normal day off today. Went and saw two movies since its five dollars before six oclock. After the city of bones and we're the millers we did a little walk around ross. Oh how we love ross. So many good deals. We didn't find any today but we cheered up a lady that was having a bad day. How you ask. Well ill tell you. We were wondering around the shoe rows and boy are there some crazy shoes at ross. I mean hookers would love some of these shoes. So leif was picking out crazy shoes for me to try on. Mind you we are all by ourselves in the size 6 1/2 row and I found this shiny silver high high heel with what looks like metal armor on the heels and toes. All I said was "man these look like they should be in an  astronaut porn" then I tried them on. Well right after I take the shoe off a lady comes around the corner and said that she just wanted to come over and look at the astronaut porn shoes. She just kept laughing and said that it was the first time she smiled all day and then she thanked us for the laugh.  After that I told leif I need to work on my inside voice so our off the wall sence of humour doesn't shock anyone else. Maybe its because we work in a restaurant but I forget that not everyone speaks their mind and jokes freely everday. That's why I love my husband.  Its never boring and we laugh everyday.

Monday, September 2, 2013


Happy labor day. Dont work to hard. And remember be nice to people who have to work today